Wednesday, February 1, 2012
Fearful and Grippy Decisions Suck (the life out of you)
When I made the decision to rent my own studio space (wall above is courtesy of Marcy, of course), I knew I could have the studio with my current student base.
But as soon as I decided to open this space, I started feeling really grippy. Fearful.
A friend had to remind me that I made my choice from a place of abundance and enough-ness and that I needed to continue to make choices from that same place or I would start doing things that I didn't want or need to do.
This is a lesson that I have to keep learning over and over.
When I do make a decision based on grippy and fear, I know right away because within hours or days, my tummy starts to hurt. I feel like vomiting when I think about what I have done.
I am getting quicker with this cycle now, though, and recognizing that the vomit feeling comes as I think about the decision -- not just after the fact.
Body is so super smart!
I have been offered more teaching opportunities outside my studio. I am going to say no.
This is hard. It is easy to think that the extra money "wouldn't hurt."
But the thing is...it would. Hurt.
It would hurt my creativity. I would have less time to work on my own movement practice or to dream up new ideas.
It would hurt my vitality. I would rest even less than I do now, and I am only just beginning to learn to rest.
The coolest part of this little story is that after realizing that I was going to have to say no to more teaching, I was asked by someone new if they could lease some space from me during times when I am not using the space at all.
What do you need to say no to to make room for more yes?